on 7th June we performed our belly dance choreography... it was nice to be on stage again!
i am happy and greateful that i lived this beautiful experience with a dear friend.
Thursday, June 11, 2015
Our Choreography
on 7th June we performed our belly dance choreography... it was nice to be on stage again!
i am happy and greateful that i lived this beautiful experience with a dear friend.
Wednesday, June 3, 2015
My law student superpower
random thoughts over my career.
now i'm over with all my Erasmus exams. i have to mentally come back to Trento, to my International Law career. i must take care of my exams, the tough ones.
one of the average traits of law students is the deep discomfort mood preceding the exams sessions, which somehow keeps them on books over and over.
that's their superpower.
otherwise they couldn't do what they do to their brains.
i'm a law student too. so why do i distinguish using the pronoun "they"?
it's simply because i just can't feel that mood. seriously. even now, in front of hundreds of rules of commercial law, i don't feel bad for the exam, or afraid. it's my big law student secret.
i can already see my fellows staring at me in dismay if i'll ever tell some law student this. after all, it's a bunch of stuff to remember, usually in a thousand pages. even the smartest and most skilled ones feel afraid.
every time i see what i have to study i can't help but thinking that this is just an exam.
yeah. just-an-exam. let's try not to see the stuff bigger than it is.
some people gave their blood to bring me knowledge, some other imperfect and failing creatures will ask me questions upon that knowledge. in the meantime, i may learn a way of thinking that will last until the end of my days. the information that i am learning by heart are almost worthless compared to this way of interpret the reality.
we deal with humans. which means that exams are 60%, if not more, a matter of luck. so...why do i have to struggle that much?
besides, personally i don't have the nature to let something like an exam ruin my present. i always find some time to amuse myself even during exams sessions, when everybody is locked up.
i've always have, since High School. i remember my parents worried because "somehow she gets good grades, but how come that she is not passing time on books?".
maybe, just maybe, caring about my happiness made me go to exams with a quieter mind.
last but not least of the reasons why i can't do to myself what the average law students do is that somehow a part of me knows with all certainty that everything is going to be good.
this certainty came from my experiences.
i saw people having very big problems. they were more problems like "i have to avoid to starve to death" or "my father raped me" rather than "if i don't pass this exam my parents will be irritated.".
that puts things on perspective. it prevented me to see an exam like a lifetime determining moment, it helped me to see it as a challenge and to develop positive stress.
the people that i saw also help me to remind why i'm studying what i'm studying. i am doing it for myself, because i owe it to them and to me.
i was born inside a system that allows me to intellectually grow, increase my knowledge and elevate my spirit as a woman and as an individual. if the children that i saw would have had such a chance, they would be making capital of it. it's my duty for myself and for the 90% of the world to make the most of it, and be grateful for this amazing opportunity.
the helpless people, the miserables, the homeless handicapped begging for money at the street corners of Tegucigalpa gave me also another infinitely precious thing: the awareness that i am gonna be able through my career to help someone. even one only person would be worth all my efforts.
this person, wherever she/he is now, has been waiting for me as much as i am waiting for her/him. our life paths are irrevocably leading us to meet, to achieve rights, to grow, to make a change.
there is a Qu'ran surah reciting "To save one life is like saving all mankind".
i saw enough to know that we do not always need a doctor to save us. we need people with ideas worth spreading, we need these ideas contained inside the "rights" to serve the weak and the strong and improve humankind.
that is my secret superpower.
now i'm over with all my Erasmus exams. i have to mentally come back to Trento, to my International Law career. i must take care of my exams, the tough ones.
one of the average traits of law students is the deep discomfort mood preceding the exams sessions, which somehow keeps them on books over and over.
that's their superpower.
otherwise they couldn't do what they do to their brains.
i'm a law student too. so why do i distinguish using the pronoun "they"?
it's simply because i just can't feel that mood. seriously. even now, in front of hundreds of rules of commercial law, i don't feel bad for the exam, or afraid. it's my big law student secret.
i can already see my fellows staring at me in dismay if i'll ever tell some law student this. after all, it's a bunch of stuff to remember, usually in a thousand pages. even the smartest and most skilled ones feel afraid.
every time i see what i have to study i can't help but thinking that this is just an exam.
yeah. just-an-exam. let's try not to see the stuff bigger than it is.
some people gave their blood to bring me knowledge, some other imperfect and failing creatures will ask me questions upon that knowledge. in the meantime, i may learn a way of thinking that will last until the end of my days. the information that i am learning by heart are almost worthless compared to this way of interpret the reality.
we deal with humans. which means that exams are 60%, if not more, a matter of luck. so...why do i have to struggle that much?
besides, personally i don't have the nature to let something like an exam ruin my present. i always find some time to amuse myself even during exams sessions, when everybody is locked up.
i've always have, since High School. i remember my parents worried because "somehow she gets good grades, but how come that she is not passing time on books?".
maybe, just maybe, caring about my happiness made me go to exams with a quieter mind.
last but not least of the reasons why i can't do to myself what the average law students do is that somehow a part of me knows with all certainty that everything is going to be good.
this certainty came from my experiences.
i saw people having very big problems. they were more problems like "i have to avoid to starve to death" or "my father raped me" rather than "if i don't pass this exam my parents will be irritated.".
that puts things on perspective. it prevented me to see an exam like a lifetime determining moment, it helped me to see it as a challenge and to develop positive stress.
the people that i saw also help me to remind why i'm studying what i'm studying. i am doing it for myself, because i owe it to them and to me.
i was born inside a system that allows me to intellectually grow, increase my knowledge and elevate my spirit as a woman and as an individual. if the children that i saw would have had such a chance, they would be making capital of it. it's my duty for myself and for the 90% of the world to make the most of it, and be grateful for this amazing opportunity.
the helpless people, the miserables, the homeless handicapped begging for money at the street corners of Tegucigalpa gave me also another infinitely precious thing: the awareness that i am gonna be able through my career to help someone. even one only person would be worth all my efforts.
this person, wherever she/he is now, has been waiting for me as much as i am waiting for her/him. our life paths are irrevocably leading us to meet, to achieve rights, to grow, to make a change.
there is a Qu'ran surah reciting "To save one life is like saving all mankind".
i saw enough to know that we do not always need a doctor to save us. we need people with ideas worth spreading, we need these ideas contained inside the "rights" to serve the weak and the strong and improve humankind.
that is my secret superpower.
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